Dear princess,

I’m sorry.

Woman of God. Daughter of the King. Precious one. I’m sorry.

I’m sorry for the fall of man. I’m sorry I just now woke back up, because for a while I was walking dead. I chased you when all you wanted was to be pursued. Or maybe all you really wanted was a friend. But I wasn’t about that zone, because my needs were too much. I lusted after your body thinking that I owned it. Like that old sweet song but with a different tune THAT’S MY GIRL. But how could you have possibly ever been mine? I didn’t create you. I didn’t know you before your mother’s womb. It was not I.. who first called you beloved. It was not I.. who made you beautifully and wonderfully. I was just some boy who called you what I thought you wanted to hear.

Baby, I love you, I need you, You’re all I’ve ever wanted, There’s no other girl but you.

I’m sorry I treated you like a body without a soul. I casually fooled around with whoever would make me feel whole, because inside I was empty. But you are worth so much more. You are an endless treasure of more than just “goodies.” You have passions, desires, dreams, ideas, feelings, emotions, creativity, imaginations, thoughts, and words of power, smiles, laughs, joy, and you inspire. You inspire us to be better men. In fact, for me you helped inspired to become a man. I hit puberty at 13, but stayed a boy for 10 more years. You do the math, so what you’re seeing right now is brand new.

I want you to know you are worth more. We don’t just wear the shirts for prostitutes and slaves. We wear them for the redeemed and saved. You are worth more…than the rarest of gems. Excuse me for ever thinking that I could give you more than Him. You are a priceless princess, but I never treated you like one. Instead, I was been busy counting you as numbers, one more girl…check. done.

I’m sorry for trampling over your hearts. You didn’t deserve that. I’m sorry for thinking that just because I could shave, I could do with you as I wish. You didn’t deserve that. I’m sorry for saying I love you as I slowly took your innocence without hesitating or withholding. I wasn’t prince charming. I was a wolf in sheep’s clothing.

So this is my apology. My deepest confession. And I know words are just words. So from here on out I promise to give you a voice to be heard. I will no longer look at you as objects, or things to play with and break. No more cheaply dates just to sway you back to my place. No more, “please just one more time.” OR “it’s not that big of deal, everyone else is doing it.” Because I know how bad that must of hurt you. To give up something that was yours just to feed my hunger. Naw, instead from now on I’ll choose to see you as He does.

Because I have this friend and His name is Jesus and He’s helping me put back the pieces. I’m letting Him do what He does best. Showing me how to be a man so that I can put my demons to rest.

One last time… I’m sorry it’s taken me this long to follow my father’s teachings. Somewhere in the mix the devil had captured my heart for the leeching. But I promise from this day forward to love you as He first loved. To cherish and care for you. To be captivated by your mystery. Because your beauty is that of a thousand splendid suns. So no more abusing you until you feel numb. So, come alive woman of God and know that we are here with you. We are for you. We want to see your souls come alive and your dreams to come true. Ours sure did on the day that He made you.

Sincerely,

Men of God

  

Original post by Austin Shugart 

World Race-N Squad (3rd Generation)