Where it’s all begin
If you have been following us in our ministry update, we have been facing so many kinds of challenges these past few months. So sad to tell you about girls that we able to help them leave the bars went back to the street, staffs that have heart to come and serve with us fell into temptation and left the ministry, some of our long term staffs also got into misunderstanding and confusion in life and I can even go on the discouraging list of attack of the enemy among us. I even got to the point that I want to pull out from everything. Where should I turn? What should I do in life? What should I do with the rest of my Thai staffs that still stick with me during good time and hard time, I cannot just leave them? So many questions really hit me but just not definitely answer to it. I really need God to help me.

Last week, we got visitors from Worldrace Parent Vision Trip, and this is their first time have this kind of trip oversea where their worldracers have visited and they happen to be in Chiangmai. They came to our coffee shop for orientation and I was able to share with them how everything in Lighthouse in Action came about and tell them my story. In the end all the fathers in the group came up and prayed for me, this is the very first time in my life that I got so many Godly fathers gather around me and prayed over me. I felt so warmth and encouraged so much and in the mid of that prayed time, I felt like God also said to me “everything going to be okay” I just couldn’t stop but tear down my face with so much comfort in the time such this.

In one of their schedule time, I would like to take them to see the potential building that we want to rent for Love Acts ministry operation. But my lack of faith and hopelessness took over in my heart too strong, so I back out on it and told the friends who organized their schedule that it should not be any use because I would need to give the answer to the owner soon that we are not able to raise money to get in the building.

As you might already have heard some story about Love Acts, we have been trying to raise money to move our operation. I have been so excited about this building and really believe that somehow it would be great location for Love Acts ministry to reaching out to the people in the red light district because this building is only 300 meters from the bars street, we want to set up English class there for them to come and take course, they can come and make jewelry as part time job, they can join our bible study class and etc. that’s was my hope but it’s about to die? I got a friend in Australia that try to raise 30,000$ for us to get started with the building but she got some in which we really praise the Lord for it but still not enough to even pay for the first take over business and just sign the rent contract which is almost 20,000$ then the rent for the first year? I just got down on my knees and confess to God I cannot do this and I also released all my intern staffs to let them go and serve with other ministry that they feel called to and might be more fruitful than us here. And some of them decided to leave us.

In the mid of all my hopelessness, The gentlemen who has authority on the building happen to be in town and last week he has been trying to meet with me for 3 times as he came by our coffee shop, but I was not around to see anyone and got into depression. The last time after he called and he came to see me again and I thought to myself this would be my last time to see him. After he sat and we talked, in the mid of my shameful, embarrassment and hopelessness I tried to find the nice and smartness word to explain to him how we could not raise enough money for the building project, and I apologies that he had to wait for me for 5 months but I still cannot get the money to pay him so I told him that I am so sorry but we need to back out from proposal to take over his building. In his calmness and business man as he is he asked me “what did God said to you?” my tear came down my face again and this time was most hurtful than ever because I know God has called me to do this work because He put His people in my hearts, people that’s hard to understand, people who hopeless and painful. I told him, I got no long term staffs work with me and no money to pay him. He said to me, “If God said so, why don’t you start?” it’s exactly the word God said to me when I wanted to started Lighthouse in Action 4 years ago! Then he gave me offered that I didn’t expected, he allow me to move into the building without pay him anything, and I can even keep paying same rent he has to the landlord without sign a new contract. That’s mean I am able to move in whenever I can as soon as possible. As our contract at wongen building come to an end the end of this month, and we have been praying about moving location or keep on going because the landlady want to increase the rent so much and turn us into the dead corner that I just not sure how to continue. When this new building is the option for us, I am so thankful for the answer and we will want to ask you to partner with us because I need 50 people to donate 60$/month for Love Acts for the next year to begin with. (total of 3,000$/month for rent & utility and operating)

Again in the mid of my human hopelessness, God has show himself faithful and true. I really appreciate all the prayers and support from friends from all over the world. Thanks for your comment and encouragement and I consider you are the joy God has sent to my life to lift me up in time of trouble.